Too Small

I would like to write about the smallest things.

The smallest of all small things doesn’t exist except as an idea. “Virtual particles” are such things, or any idea of mankind.

The next biggest thing is called a photon, which is a particle of light. It exists only in that it leaves a trail behind it – similar to how a plane leaves a trail of exhaust or a pen leaves a blot of ink – but a bright one instead, like a tiny, tiny star. The next biggest thing is a particle of matter. Those combine to form atoms, molecules, etc.

Finally, God’s ideas are the largest of all things.

Why are the smallest things important? They can’t be found or held; they don’t enlighten anything or anybody; they have no lasting impact. God’s ideas, on the other hand, are evident everywhere and shaped the universe and all matter. But God cares about the smallest things; He cares what we are thinking. God wants us to have big thoughts – His thoughts. In giving us the mind of Christ, God has placed within us a form of vastness beyond the extent of the universe. To those who know Him, God has imparted the largest of all things.

Matter itself is by en large emptiness; some atoms have less density than our solar system. And yet God ideated and created matter; in a way, God created shapes, not solidity. In the same way, God created and cares more about our shape (our character) than our size or solidity (our knowledge or wisdom). He also seems to care more about the shape of the universe than its size. If He had cared about its size, He would have made it infinitely big. He created a shape with shapes in it, versus any thing or person deserving of self-pride.

Why does this matter to me right now? Because I feel especially small. I have been looking at myself as an idea shaped (in part) by my ideas. My true shape is an idea of God. I am a collision of the smallest of things with the largest of things. Generally, when a large thing impacts a small thing, the small thing is either incorporated into the large thing or is broken into even smaller things, sometimes into photons. God breaks down my ideas until they are more and more futile. If He destroys my ideas, then there is light.

It is good to seek the destruction of my fleshly ideas. The best way to do that is to bounce them off of God’s ideas, God’s words. If I do that mercilously (to my mind) enough, then only truth (light) will remain. I mustn’t hold onto my ideas. I must cast them upon God’s creation. Then, they will become one with His creation.

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